Tuesday, December 2, 2008

exercise

hiya, weighed in last night, lost 700g so happy with that. now its 18.7kg lost...only another 1.3kg and i would have lost 20kg...so im really aiming for that loss this week.
im thinking about going to the gym. its been raining here alot and i cant go out and walk in the rain coz i dont wanna push shammah out in it plus i dont want either of us getting a cold again. i have heard that contours is good and might be just the thing for me to do to start me off. im gunna enquire about prices and times coz i either have to go when shep gets home from work or b4 he goes...which would mean really early morning!!! im still not 100%sure i wanna do the whole gym thing yet but its been bugging me this week so i probably should give it a go. i just didnt wanna spend money or put my son in care or anything while i went to the gym, walking has been great so far but like i said...when i rains i cant go! it really frustrates me coz i now actually enjoy going for my walk and can really see the benefits from going and i kinda feel lost and annoyed that i havnt gone. anyways i better stop moaning and do something about it!
im going to buy my first pair of trainers in years tomorrow. yes, i have been walking in my crappy black work shoes that i have had for ages and worn to death...so much so that they are almost ready for the tip! so i was talking to my hubby and said its time to get them, not only coz my black ones are dying but coz i need proper shoes to do all my walking in and for the gym-if i go! he said dont just get them, buy 2 nice pairs of shoes of my choice...not 1 but 2!!!! i couldnt belive it, i was so happy! he said i hv worked so hard to loose weight and havnt had new shoes in so long, isnt he a sweety! im gunna hold out on the lovely offer though and get some nice ones when i have lost a bit more weight, now summer is on our doorstep i will just wear flip flops most days anyway. it was just so nice that shep said that, he is such a sweety! when i get my trainers i will take a pic and post them here! haha
everything is going well on all other fronts, im trying new recipes frequently and mixing up what i eat, good to keep the body guessing, not letting it get used to the same thing everyday...especially breakfast, i love the ww fruit and fibre cereal but now try and have something else twice a week too, our leader suggested we mix it up a bit so i have! :)
i have some great recipes to try out and alot that have filo pastry, can you belive i have never cooked this filo pastry b4! so it will be a real treat baking it.
anyhoo its its after 10pm and im feeling tired, my hubby is off to the west coast for 2days with work so id better get some cuddle time in b4 the bed is empty...boohoo
cheers
jacqueline

Monday, November 24, 2008

i have lost 18kg!

hiya, well i went to weigh in tonight feeling a bit aprehensive. i have been sick most of last week and wasnt able to exercise and had been on medication etc. i had remained in my points, with a few to spare even but was still worried, that time of the month and just felt rather blah!
it was with relief and joy that i saw i had lost 800g which brings me to total 18kg loss! yay! i was so happy and one of the ladies who helps sign in new members at weight watchers came over and gave me a big hug! that really made my day. i went home after the meeting feeling so good about myself (big head i know) and it goes to show that even when we are ill and life throws some unexpected things our way, we can still stay on track, i counted all my points, as i always do, i planned as best i could for meals (was very ill couple of days, went to emergency etc with severe pain in my lower abdomen...which with all the tests they still dont know whats causing it) and i still got a loss!
i love going to my weekly meetings. i find them so motivating and its great to catch up with the other girls and see how they are going. we have a new leader and i find her so great to listen to and she is such an inspiration as she has lost alot of weight and kept it off. our old leader is still doing the morning sessions but needed an extra person for the evening weigh ins, so lynne has stepped up to the challenge and she is brill!
im 2kg off my christmas gaol. i wanted to be 20kg lighter by then but to be honest my main aim is to be 99.9kg by new year....ohhh i cant wait to be under 100kilos! im telling ya i will be doing the happy dance then! haha
im making a new recipe for dinner tomorrow night, its not a weight watchers one but i have worked out the points etc, it sounds delicious and im up for the challenge of cooking something different. we cant get stuck in the rut of eating the same foods all the time, we have to mix it up a bit to get all the diff vitamins and stuff for our bodies...gotta keep our bodies or there toes!
i will post the recipe if its a nice meal! i hope it gets my 2yr olds approval!
ohhhh its getting late and i do need my beauty sleep. night all.
jacqueline

Saturday, November 8, 2008

not well

im really not well now, my head and body is aching, my throat hurts, im coughing, my nose is running...i feel so crap!
i havnt been able to go for a walk in 3days, its been raining here and with this cold i dont think i could make it to the end of the street without coughing my head off! im so ticked off, just typical eh coz i had got in a great routine of walking etc...
dont mind me, im just having a pity party!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

feeling totally crappers!

woke up this morning feeling totaly rubbish. my throat feels all dry and irritated and i have a runny nose. im not happy! i feel as though i could sleep all day, but cant as i have a 2year old. he is asleep right now, if i was smart i should have layed down with him for a nap...but since im not smart, i didnt, instead im on the net writing this!
did my grocery shopping today, is it just me or are things getting more expensive? i spent $230 and my trolley wasnt even full! scary. nappies are included in this, im gunna have to start toilet training my little man soon so at least thats one cost that will get cut down.
my best friend invited me over for a cuppa yesturday so instead of driving, which i usually do, i thought i would walk. it only takes 20mins to walk there (with my slow walking) but there are a couple of hills..i hate hills! but i went and huffed and puffed up the hills but felt so much better for doing it...i used that as my daily walk. her daughters got such a shock when they came inside and saw me there, they were like, wheres the car? shammah had fallen asleep so we kept him in the pram and just left him in the hallway, he slept for ages...the poor girls were waiting so patiently for him to wake up!
im walking alot more now, i cant belive it but im actually enjoying it, i sometimes have to motivate myself to get off my butt and go but once i do i love it. i think shammah enjoys it too, he is in the pram but the fresh air and change of scenery is good for him.
my weight loss is also going well, im loosing weight at a steady pace and so far havnt put any on. i have days where i feel so tempted and have had a couple of things i shouldnt but im always honest with myself and write the points down, i think its so good to keep a food diary and count all the points, i really thank weight watchers so much for the tools they equip us with to loose weight. i was so totaly clueless befor but now i know more about portion size and oils and eating a varied diet and not all the greasy crappy stuff i used to eat. i think the exercise has really helped alot too, now that im walking consistantly its getting easier and i can walk a bit further and push myself a little hard (such as the hills!)
i love how you can fill yourself up with good food, and you dont have to eat so much till u can hardly move...it makes me feel so horrible when doing that now, i always try and remember to eat till im satisfied,not full! but as i said befor, i do have days when i wanna eat crap and have given in to temptation but its not often and i dont totally blow out...i have changed so much compared to how i used to be, like say i might have decided to go on a diet but then i would eat some bbq samboys, well instead of leaving it at that i would then have chocolate, kfc or fish and chips and fizzy and the list goes on and on...now i have been tempted and have eaten a piece of cheesecake or some hot chips but not too much and havnt thought "stuff the diet", i have written the food down, counted the points and learnt from my mistakes, it really makes you think and evalute why we do the things we do. its so good to feel more in control.
this weight loss journey is gunna be a long one but its soooo worth it.
shammah is awake now, better go and tend to my motherly duties! :)

Friday, October 31, 2008

munchies

have you ever had one of those days when you just feel like picking at food all day?
yesturday was one of those days for me. i soooo wanted to eat a chocolate, i dont know why and im telling you it was hard to resist walking to the shop to buy some but i did resist. i ate a freddo frog and loved every bit of it...problem was i wasnt completely satisfied, i kept looking through my cupboards to find something else that was yummy but low in points. in the end i made popcorn and munched on it till my heart was content! later that day i went for a walk, it really cleared my head, i guess i had been feeling a bit low and was doing what the old jacqueline would have done....eat! im so proude of myself for not giving in totally to temptation, instead of pigging out i made much healthier choices... on my walk i was thinking why didnt i just do something to get my mind off food, like call my mum or a friend or something...or play with shammah or clean the house instead of torturing myself with thoughts of food. it was a real lesson for me and one i will learn from.
today was a great day, took shammah to jungle gym with other mums and there kids from our church milestones group, the kids had a ball and it was great to catch up with my friends over a cuppa. i took my own snacks and sandwhich with me for lunch and im happy to say i didnt over indulge or feel envious of my friends eating chocolate biscuits.
it feels good to be incontrol of my thoughts and decisions! :)

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

10% weight loss!

went for my weekly weigh in at weight watchers monday night and had lost a whopping 2.2kg! i was so happy, thats the most i have ever lost in one week. i have reached my first major goal which was the 10% weight loss, in total i have lost 13.3kg in 10weeks. i felt so proude to get my gold star to go on the keyring i receive when i reach goal weight. i know it all sounds very corny but it did honestly mean alot to get that.
i have been walking regularly...i have found the exercise to be the hardest challenge for me, its so difficult to motivate myself but i have been trying and i am seeing the benefits from my efforts. on sunday avo my hubby stayed home with our son while i went for a 30min walk and it was so weird going for a walk and not pushing the pram, i felt a bit lost. today i went for a 40min walk, with the pram, shammah fell asleep and i enjoyed the walk, at this stage i cant walk too fast so i just go at my own pace...not too slow...i still work up a sweat and huff and puff...i is very unfit woman! haha so i see the whole exercise thing as one of my biggest challenges and since im doing pretty good with food (alothough thats not always easy) im gunna TRY and stick to walking at least 30mins 4days a week...keep u posted on how im doing.
shep is home sick today, he has a cough, runny nose and generally feels crappers, poor fella. he is currently sitting outside in the sun, my husband is like a lizard, honestly, he loves to follow the sun when its shining in our house, if its in the bedroom he will go there and lay where its shining in thru the window, i always laugh at him! well, he is from zimbabwe and i guess it reminds him of home! :) we live in tasmania now and the weather isnt always nice here like in some parts of aus...winter has been very cold.
im cooking grilled salmon with sweet potato and pumpkin cut into wedges baked and points free salad, we all love this meal, im so lucky my son (who is only 2) loves fish...he eats well which is a real blessing.
i better go check how my lizard, i mean hubby is doing outside...i can hear shammah out there running around having a ball so im not too sure if shep is getting much rest at the mo!

Friday, October 24, 2008

pics for the b4 me!




hiya!


well today i decided i had to take some photos of myself for my b4 shots so when i loose all the weight i can look back and think, arrgggg did i really look like that! haha i got my dear hubby to take the pics, we decided i should have some of me in my underwear, well, when i saw the pics i was a bit shocked, especially the pic of my back...i didnt realise my fat roll went all the way to almost the middle of my back, that did scare me! now those pics are for my own file so dont worry, there is no way i will post them here so you can breathe easy now. haha


im really glad we took the pics though, wish i had of taken them of me b4 id lost 11kg though! never mind.


going back to getting a bit of a surprise when i saw the pic of my back, since we moved back to australia we havnt bought a full length mirror, i wonder if thats coz i dont wanna see how i really look???? i have been in town a few times and nearly bought one but then i put if off.


a couple of weeks ago we were down the west coast and i was in the bathroom of our hotel room and i looked at myself in the big mirror and thought, oh man, look at your belly! i dont hate myself or anything but i guess when you see yourself like that its a big reminder of why i started the weight loss journey in the first place, one day i wanna be able to look in the mirror and think wow, girl, your belly looks great!!!! haha


give me a year and i will be saying it! :)


apart from the photo shock i have had a good day. i have eaten well and remained within my points, with 4.5 to spare! i was thinking i might eat something to use all the points but then im not hungry so why should i? i havnt done any exercise today so i really dont need to eat anything.


shep finished work a little earlier today so he surprised us. (its cool when he does that...dosnt happen very often) at the time i was bathing shammah as he had done a real runny poo and its one of those ones where u gotta strip everything off and put them straight in the bath! shep was wondering why i was bathing him at 4 in the avo... :{




Tuesday, October 21, 2008

11.1kg lost so far....only another 46kg to go!

last night i weighed in @ 113.2kg which means i have lost a total of 11.1kg. although i only lost 200g this week (ate a couple of takeaways...paying for it now!!) i am still happy that i can say i have lost over 11kg in 9weeks. Makes me feel rather proude actually...big head and all that.. :) haha
i started weight watchers 9weeks ago and havnt looked back since. i feel so determined to do this and now that i have actually been given the tools to accomplish my dreams i just know i can.
i have always been big, a cant actually ever remember a time when i wasnt overweight. it never used to bother me, i was always happy and content, i could do most things others did and enjoyed life but these last couple of years i had gained even more weight and was feeling very uncomfortable. 2years ago we had our first son, shammah, our pride and joy. i actually lost weight during my pregnancy as i had morning, noon and night sickness!
i would go to my antenatal classes (this all happened in the UK-lived there for 6yrs before moving back to aus last year) and see the other thin ladies with there bumps and i remember actually feeling a hint of jealousy...coz i was so large you couldnt really tell what was baby or what was a fat roll!!!! i thought it would be so wonderful to actually be able to see my bump more, yes i knew i had a baby in that big tummy of mine but i just wished my fat looked more like a bump, as it did on the other ladies. also when i went for checkups it was always harder for the midwife and the sonographer to hear/see the baby, had to negotiate with all my fat rolls and find where bub was!
one month after having shammah my father passed away, he was having several operations to have anurisms removed but due to alot of complications he died, it was so terrible for me as all my family were back home in australia and i was in the UK, it was supposed to be one of the best times of my life, the joy of having a baby is so amazing but in the midst of all that was the terrible sorrow and heartache of being so far away from my family at such a time. dad was slowly dying over a few days and all my family were at the hospital, they would sms me and ring me in the middle of the night uk time, i was awake coz of feeding bub, i would be crying and feeding shammah and ohhhh it was just one of the worst times in my life.
a month later shammah and i were able to travel to australia, my husband, shep followed us a month later. anyway, to cut a long story short, it was during this time that i really felt the need to do something about my weight. i wanted to be around for a long time, i didnt want my children to go through the same thing i did when loosing dad and i wanted to be a fit and healthy mum.
i find it so hard to run around and play with my son. i mean, i can do it but i know it would be so much easier if i was alot lighter. my husband, shep, is a thin, fit guy and i wish i could do half the stuff he is able to do! my back always aches and my knees too. i cant sit on the floor for long coz of these 2problems and when im sleeping at night i have to have a couple of pillows under my head or i feel like i cant breathe properly.
now it sounds like im complaining but im just trying to give you the picture of all the factors of my wanting to loose weight.
i decided to try loosing the weight on my own a few times but they were always half hearted attempts. i never stayed on them long and soon went back to my bad eating habbits.
when we moved back to australia i put on another 15kgs, making me 124.3kg! none of my clothes fitted properly, size 24 was getting too tight, that was when i said to my hubby i have had enough, im going to weight watchers...and off i went!!!!!
lots of people had talked to me about doing WW but i had always thought it was a load of rubbish and counting points wasnt for me, i couldnt be bothered with all that! it wasnt until my hairdresser was telling me how much her friend had lost and she actually explained how it all worked and i think i was feeling so desperate to change my lifestyle that i actually listened for a change instead of blocking it...like i usually did when people talked to me about diets.
a couple of weeks later i got on the internet, checked out the WW website, found the address of my nearest meeting, i went, i got weighed, (nearly died!!) found out how much i needed to loose to be in my healthy BMI and now i am on the road to weight loss! i try not to look at it as a diet, for me it is a whole lifestyle change. im learing how to eat properly and how to cook without all the oil and other crap i would use.
weight watchers is absolutely brilliant, its worth the money and to be honest i would have spent more on takeaways a month than i do on WW! they have given me the tools to success and im never going back to where i was before. i have lost weight every week, sometimes less than i would have liked but im learning from my mistakes. once apon a time if i had of stuffed up once during a diet i would have thought, oh well,who cares and eaten a block of chocolate to make myself "feel" better. now, if i have over indulged a bit i think, jacqueline, why did you do that? and i pick myself up and recover, if i go over my points one day i dont continue on that downward spiral, i kick myself in the butt and work much harder the next day to stay on track.
This is for life, not for a week! its going to take me over a year to loose all my excess weight but mate, its gunna be good!

Friday, October 17, 2008

cant get this blog to work properly

maybe im just not doing something right but apparently my hubby tried to find my blog online but couldnt! im trying to work out what is the problem but do u think i can work it out???? i dunno what im doing wrong, its getting late and i havnt sorted the problem. if anyone is out there reading this then let me know, if u read then it must be working! haha

Thursday, October 16, 2008

The beginning!

Hello! my name is Jacqueline and this is my blog!

I'm new to the whole blogging world but i thought it would be a great place to share my thoughts and feelings and life journey with anyone who is interested in reading it!

when i was younger i always kept a diary, so i kinda look at this blog like that.

its taken me longer than i thought it would to set this blog up and its getting very late so i wont write anything too deep and meaningful right now... stay tuned for the story of me!