have you ever had one of those days when you just feel like picking at food all day?
yesturday was one of those days for me. i soooo wanted to eat a chocolate, i dont know why and im telling you it was hard to resist walking to the shop to buy some but i did resist. i ate a freddo frog and loved every bit of it...problem was i wasnt completely satisfied, i kept looking through my cupboards to find something else that was yummy but low in points. in the end i made popcorn and munched on it till my heart was content! later that day i went for a walk, it really cleared my head, i guess i had been feeling a bit low and was doing what the old jacqueline would have done....eat! im so proude of myself for not giving in totally to temptation, instead of pigging out i made much healthier choices... on my walk i was thinking why didnt i just do something to get my mind off food, like call my mum or a friend or something...or play with shammah or clean the house instead of torturing myself with thoughts of food. it was a real lesson for me and one i will learn from.
today was a great day, took shammah to jungle gym with other mums and there kids from our church milestones group, the kids had a ball and it was great to catch up with my friends over a cuppa. i took my own snacks and sandwhich with me for lunch and im happy to say i didnt over indulge or feel envious of my friends eating chocolate biscuits.
it feels good to be incontrol of my thoughts and decisions! :)
Friday, October 31, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
10% weight loss!
went for my weekly weigh in at weight watchers monday night and had lost a whopping 2.2kg! i was so happy, thats the most i have ever lost in one week. i have reached my first major goal which was the 10% weight loss, in total i have lost 13.3kg in 10weeks. i felt so proude to get my gold star to go on the keyring i receive when i reach goal weight. i know it all sounds very corny but it did honestly mean alot to get that.
i have been walking regularly...i have found the exercise to be the hardest challenge for me, its so difficult to motivate myself but i have been trying and i am seeing the benefits from my efforts. on sunday avo my hubby stayed home with our son while i went for a 30min walk and it was so weird going for a walk and not pushing the pram, i felt a bit lost. today i went for a 40min walk, with the pram, shammah fell asleep and i enjoyed the walk, at this stage i cant walk too fast so i just go at my own pace...not too slow...i still work up a sweat and huff and puff...i is very unfit woman! haha so i see the whole exercise thing as one of my biggest challenges and since im doing pretty good with food (alothough thats not always easy) im gunna TRY and stick to walking at least 30mins 4days a week...keep u posted on how im doing.
shep is home sick today, he has a cough, runny nose and generally feels crappers, poor fella. he is currently sitting outside in the sun, my husband is like a lizard, honestly, he loves to follow the sun when its shining in our house, if its in the bedroom he will go there and lay where its shining in thru the window, i always laugh at him! well, he is from zimbabwe and i guess it reminds him of home! :) we live in tasmania now and the weather isnt always nice here like in some parts of aus...winter has been very cold.
im cooking grilled salmon with sweet potato and pumpkin cut into wedges baked and points free salad, we all love this meal, im so lucky my son (who is only 2) loves fish...he eats well which is a real blessing.
i better go check how my lizard, i mean hubby is doing outside...i can hear shammah out there running around having a ball so im not too sure if shep is getting much rest at the mo!
i have been walking regularly...i have found the exercise to be the hardest challenge for me, its so difficult to motivate myself but i have been trying and i am seeing the benefits from my efforts. on sunday avo my hubby stayed home with our son while i went for a 30min walk and it was so weird going for a walk and not pushing the pram, i felt a bit lost. today i went for a 40min walk, with the pram, shammah fell asleep and i enjoyed the walk, at this stage i cant walk too fast so i just go at my own pace...not too slow...i still work up a sweat and huff and puff...i is very unfit woman! haha so i see the whole exercise thing as one of my biggest challenges and since im doing pretty good with food (alothough thats not always easy) im gunna TRY and stick to walking at least 30mins 4days a week...keep u posted on how im doing.
shep is home sick today, he has a cough, runny nose and generally feels crappers, poor fella. he is currently sitting outside in the sun, my husband is like a lizard, honestly, he loves to follow the sun when its shining in our house, if its in the bedroom he will go there and lay where its shining in thru the window, i always laugh at him! well, he is from zimbabwe and i guess it reminds him of home! :) we live in tasmania now and the weather isnt always nice here like in some parts of aus...winter has been very cold.
im cooking grilled salmon with sweet potato and pumpkin cut into wedges baked and points free salad, we all love this meal, im so lucky my son (who is only 2) loves fish...he eats well which is a real blessing.
i better go check how my lizard, i mean hubby is doing outside...i can hear shammah out there running around having a ball so im not too sure if shep is getting much rest at the mo!
Friday, October 24, 2008
pics for the b4 me!
hiya!
well today i decided i had to take some photos of myself for my b4 shots so when i loose all the weight i can look back and think, arrgggg did i really look like that! haha i got my dear hubby to take the pics, we decided i should have some of me in my underwear, well, when i saw the pics i was a bit shocked, especially the pic of my back...i didnt realise my fat roll went all the way to almost the middle of my back, that did scare me! now those pics are for my own file so dont worry, there is no way i will post them here so you can breathe easy now. haha
im really glad we took the pics though, wish i had of taken them of me b4 id lost 11kg though! never mind.
going back to getting a bit of a surprise when i saw the pic of my back, since we moved back to australia we havnt bought a full length mirror, i wonder if thats coz i dont wanna see how i really look???? i have been in town a few times and nearly bought one but then i put if off.
a couple of weeks ago we were down the west coast and i was in the bathroom of our hotel room and i looked at myself in the big mirror and thought, oh man, look at your belly! i dont hate myself or anything but i guess when you see yourself like that its a big reminder of why i started the weight loss journey in the first place, one day i wanna be able to look in the mirror and think wow, girl, your belly looks great!!!! haha
give me a year and i will be saying it! :)
apart from the photo shock i have had a good day. i have eaten well and remained within my points, with 4.5 to spare! i was thinking i might eat something to use all the points but then im not hungry so why should i? i havnt done any exercise today so i really dont need to eat anything.
shep finished work a little earlier today so he surprised us. (its cool when he does that...dosnt happen very often) at the time i was bathing shammah as he had done a real runny poo and its one of those ones where u gotta strip everything off and put them straight in the bath! shep was wondering why i was bathing him at 4 in the avo... :{
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
11.1kg lost so far....only another 46kg to go!
last night i weighed in @ 113.2kg which means i have lost a total of 11.1kg. although i only lost 200g this week (ate a couple of takeaways...paying for it now!!) i am still happy that i can say i have lost over 11kg in 9weeks. Makes me feel rather proude actually...big head and all that.. :) haha
i started weight watchers 9weeks ago and havnt looked back since. i feel so determined to do this and now that i have actually been given the tools to accomplish my dreams i just know i can.
i have always been big, a cant actually ever remember a time when i wasnt overweight. it never used to bother me, i was always happy and content, i could do most things others did and enjoyed life but these last couple of years i had gained even more weight and was feeling very uncomfortable. 2years ago we had our first son, shammah, our pride and joy. i actually lost weight during my pregnancy as i had morning, noon and night sickness!
i would go to my antenatal classes (this all happened in the UK-lived there for 6yrs before moving back to aus last year) and see the other thin ladies with there bumps and i remember actually feeling a hint of jealousy...coz i was so large you couldnt really tell what was baby or what was a fat roll!!!! i thought it would be so wonderful to actually be able to see my bump more, yes i knew i had a baby in that big tummy of mine but i just wished my fat looked more like a bump, as it did on the other ladies. also when i went for checkups it was always harder for the midwife and the sonographer to hear/see the baby, had to negotiate with all my fat rolls and find where bub was!
one month after having shammah my father passed away, he was having several operations to have anurisms removed but due to alot of complications he died, it was so terrible for me as all my family were back home in australia and i was in the UK, it was supposed to be one of the best times of my life, the joy of having a baby is so amazing but in the midst of all that was the terrible sorrow and heartache of being so far away from my family at such a time. dad was slowly dying over a few days and all my family were at the hospital, they would sms me and ring me in the middle of the night uk time, i was awake coz of feeding bub, i would be crying and feeding shammah and ohhhh it was just one of the worst times in my life.
a month later shammah and i were able to travel to australia, my husband, shep followed us a month later. anyway, to cut a long story short, it was during this time that i really felt the need to do something about my weight. i wanted to be around for a long time, i didnt want my children to go through the same thing i did when loosing dad and i wanted to be a fit and healthy mum.
i find it so hard to run around and play with my son. i mean, i can do it but i know it would be so much easier if i was alot lighter. my husband, shep, is a thin, fit guy and i wish i could do half the stuff he is able to do! my back always aches and my knees too. i cant sit on the floor for long coz of these 2problems and when im sleeping at night i have to have a couple of pillows under my head or i feel like i cant breathe properly.
now it sounds like im complaining but im just trying to give you the picture of all the factors of my wanting to loose weight.
i decided to try loosing the weight on my own a few times but they were always half hearted attempts. i never stayed on them long and soon went back to my bad eating habbits.
when we moved back to australia i put on another 15kgs, making me 124.3kg! none of my clothes fitted properly, size 24 was getting too tight, that was when i said to my hubby i have had enough, im going to weight watchers...and off i went!!!!!
lots of people had talked to me about doing WW but i had always thought it was a load of rubbish and counting points wasnt for me, i couldnt be bothered with all that! it wasnt until my hairdresser was telling me how much her friend had lost and she actually explained how it all worked and i think i was feeling so desperate to change my lifestyle that i actually listened for a change instead of blocking it...like i usually did when people talked to me about diets.
a couple of weeks later i got on the internet, checked out the WW website, found the address of my nearest meeting, i went, i got weighed, (nearly died!!) found out how much i needed to loose to be in my healthy BMI and now i am on the road to weight loss! i try not to look at it as a diet, for me it is a whole lifestyle change. im learing how to eat properly and how to cook without all the oil and other crap i would use.
weight watchers is absolutely brilliant, its worth the money and to be honest i would have spent more on takeaways a month than i do on WW! they have given me the tools to success and im never going back to where i was before. i have lost weight every week, sometimes less than i would have liked but im learning from my mistakes. once apon a time if i had of stuffed up once during a diet i would have thought, oh well,who cares and eaten a block of chocolate to make myself "feel" better. now, if i have over indulged a bit i think, jacqueline, why did you do that? and i pick myself up and recover, if i go over my points one day i dont continue on that downward spiral, i kick myself in the butt and work much harder the next day to stay on track.
This is for life, not for a week! its going to take me over a year to loose all my excess weight but mate, its gunna be good!
i started weight watchers 9weeks ago and havnt looked back since. i feel so determined to do this and now that i have actually been given the tools to accomplish my dreams i just know i can.
i have always been big, a cant actually ever remember a time when i wasnt overweight. it never used to bother me, i was always happy and content, i could do most things others did and enjoyed life but these last couple of years i had gained even more weight and was feeling very uncomfortable. 2years ago we had our first son, shammah, our pride and joy. i actually lost weight during my pregnancy as i had morning, noon and night sickness!
i would go to my antenatal classes (this all happened in the UK-lived there for 6yrs before moving back to aus last year) and see the other thin ladies with there bumps and i remember actually feeling a hint of jealousy...coz i was so large you couldnt really tell what was baby or what was a fat roll!!!! i thought it would be so wonderful to actually be able to see my bump more, yes i knew i had a baby in that big tummy of mine but i just wished my fat looked more like a bump, as it did on the other ladies. also when i went for checkups it was always harder for the midwife and the sonographer to hear/see the baby, had to negotiate with all my fat rolls and find where bub was!
one month after having shammah my father passed away, he was having several operations to have anurisms removed but due to alot of complications he died, it was so terrible for me as all my family were back home in australia and i was in the UK, it was supposed to be one of the best times of my life, the joy of having a baby is so amazing but in the midst of all that was the terrible sorrow and heartache of being so far away from my family at such a time. dad was slowly dying over a few days and all my family were at the hospital, they would sms me and ring me in the middle of the night uk time, i was awake coz of feeding bub, i would be crying and feeding shammah and ohhhh it was just one of the worst times in my life.
a month later shammah and i were able to travel to australia, my husband, shep followed us a month later. anyway, to cut a long story short, it was during this time that i really felt the need to do something about my weight. i wanted to be around for a long time, i didnt want my children to go through the same thing i did when loosing dad and i wanted to be a fit and healthy mum.
i find it so hard to run around and play with my son. i mean, i can do it but i know it would be so much easier if i was alot lighter. my husband, shep, is a thin, fit guy and i wish i could do half the stuff he is able to do! my back always aches and my knees too. i cant sit on the floor for long coz of these 2problems and when im sleeping at night i have to have a couple of pillows under my head or i feel like i cant breathe properly.
now it sounds like im complaining but im just trying to give you the picture of all the factors of my wanting to loose weight.
i decided to try loosing the weight on my own a few times but they were always half hearted attempts. i never stayed on them long and soon went back to my bad eating habbits.
when we moved back to australia i put on another 15kgs, making me 124.3kg! none of my clothes fitted properly, size 24 was getting too tight, that was when i said to my hubby i have had enough, im going to weight watchers...and off i went!!!!!
lots of people had talked to me about doing WW but i had always thought it was a load of rubbish and counting points wasnt for me, i couldnt be bothered with all that! it wasnt until my hairdresser was telling me how much her friend had lost and she actually explained how it all worked and i think i was feeling so desperate to change my lifestyle that i actually listened for a change instead of blocking it...like i usually did when people talked to me about diets.
a couple of weeks later i got on the internet, checked out the WW website, found the address of my nearest meeting, i went, i got weighed, (nearly died!!) found out how much i needed to loose to be in my healthy BMI and now i am on the road to weight loss! i try not to look at it as a diet, for me it is a whole lifestyle change. im learing how to eat properly and how to cook without all the oil and other crap i would use.
weight watchers is absolutely brilliant, its worth the money and to be honest i would have spent more on takeaways a month than i do on WW! they have given me the tools to success and im never going back to where i was before. i have lost weight every week, sometimes less than i would have liked but im learning from my mistakes. once apon a time if i had of stuffed up once during a diet i would have thought, oh well,who cares and eaten a block of chocolate to make myself "feel" better. now, if i have over indulged a bit i think, jacqueline, why did you do that? and i pick myself up and recover, if i go over my points one day i dont continue on that downward spiral, i kick myself in the butt and work much harder the next day to stay on track.
This is for life, not for a week! its going to take me over a year to loose all my excess weight but mate, its gunna be good!
Friday, October 17, 2008
cant get this blog to work properly
maybe im just not doing something right but apparently my hubby tried to find my blog online but couldnt! im trying to work out what is the problem but do u think i can work it out???? i dunno what im doing wrong, its getting late and i havnt sorted the problem. if anyone is out there reading this then let me know, if u read then it must be working! haha
Thursday, October 16, 2008
The beginning!
Hello! my name is Jacqueline and this is my blog!
I'm new to the whole blogging world but i thought it would be a great place to share my thoughts and feelings and life journey with anyone who is interested in reading it!
when i was younger i always kept a diary, so i kinda look at this blog like that.
its taken me longer than i thought it would to set this blog up and its getting very late so i wont write anything too deep and meaningful right now... stay tuned for the story of me!
I'm new to the whole blogging world but i thought it would be a great place to share my thoughts and feelings and life journey with anyone who is interested in reading it!
when i was younger i always kept a diary, so i kinda look at this blog like that.
its taken me longer than i thought it would to set this blog up and its getting very late so i wont write anything too deep and meaningful right now... stay tuned for the story of me!
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